Both Grateful and Sad.
The holidays can be a bit challenging for the single mother.
I’m grateful for a full-time job. I’m sad that sometimes it isn’t always enough to provide the fun extras in life.
I’m grateful for a happy, healthy little boy. I’m sad that I work so much and miss him…and feel like I fail him as a mother…(doc says his bmi is too high…how does that happen?? He’s active!…doc says he’s too hyper too… Feel like I’m missing something as a mommy here..)
I’m grateful for a relationship with the Lord and that He sees me through every day and every challenge. I’m sad that I don’t have that human hand to hold when life throws me into little messes, or to share the happy moments.
I’m grateful for family and friends to lean on and love. I’m sad that half of them are across the US.
I’m grateful for a healthy and strong body and mind; for legs that can run. I’m sad that I don’t get the opportunity to run more often.
I’m grateful for lots of things in life. I know we are blessed beyond measure. We have more than many in this world. I wouldn’t be human however, if I never admitted to sadness or failure… sometimes in America when I see others enjoying worry-free shopping and having fun I feel left out. Now I know life isn’t about material things and such…so why does it bother me? Because I can’t give much.. I’d like to be able to give more each Christmas.
Today’s run was good for my soul. I had a lot on my mind. What would I do with out this amazing stress relief? I thank God every day for strong legs, a strong heart (in more ways than one) and a strong spirit.
My first 5k is approaching soon.. only two days left. And here I am blogging about sadness… This is no good. I need to get off my butt and be grateful for all we are blessed with.
This race for me isn’t just about time, speed and awards… It’s a personal journey I decided to take. Running is good for the soul.
Okay, now for some practical words…do you run the day before a race or not? I was planning on yoga and pilates tomorrow and maybe one mile?? Any advice?
1 Dec 2011 / runpinkjess / 0