I’m not a successful business woman. I’m not ‘dominating’ the field. I don’t own stilettos and suits. I don’t wear Mary Kay on the regular (or ever…nothing against it. I just don’t like much makeup). I don’t manage large buildings or medicine. I don’t have a doctorate. Honestly? I don’t even have an associates. There I said it. I’m self-taught and learned though many certification courses. I don’t have intelligent conversations with ceos or ‘important’ people.
But what or who is ‘important’?
What is ‘success’?
All I know is that right now where I’m at I’m falling apart inside feeling ‘less-than’.
My husband is out in the world, donning a suit and tie, managing business.
I’m sweaty and gross often.
At home more often than not.
I run. So there’s that…
I work with ladies who I adore. But, I’m not ‘that woman’.
I’m not ‘sexy’. Or ‘fierce’. I’m not bold.
I’m pregnant. Swollen, hormonal and wacky.
And I’m just jess.
Why then, suddenly had this become less than?
Maybe it’s because I decided to start a women’s working bible study and Satan has it out for me. I don’t know.
All I know is I need to reach out and ask for some emotional support. I’m humbled.
Mothers. Runners. Talk to me. Where is your heart today?
19 Jul 2017 / runpinkjess / 3